In the Moment yet Lost

Practice is going really well at the moment. There's heaps I want to work on but that's part of practising daily and having patience (a big lesson for scorpio's).

David Swenson's first series dvd arrived yesterday and I spent last night watching it. It's unreal! It makes me feel a whole lot better about my practice and I've got some great tips from it.

'B' suggested I activate my thigh muscles more in Prasarita Padottanasana A - D. I found this most helpful. It's funny how you don't realise you do or don't do certain things in your practice until someone brings your attention to it.

I ordered "Ashtanga Yoga: Practice and Philosophy" by Gregor Maehle which seems like an excellent book. I'm especially interested in the anatomy/physiology side of things thru it. I love learning about the body. It has some tips and hints thoughout it for opening hips, etc. I'll let you know what it's like once I get it.

I've been feeling two major things lately. 1) very relaxed and carefree and in the moment, and then 2) lost and confused and thinking way too much about the future. I've been flipping from one to two and back again ever since I finished the NLP course. Because there was so much infomration crammed into that 2 week period, I feel ike it's slipped away from my mind and I can't apply it to my current situation. Then when I'm talking to people I realise how much I've retained. I can't help but wonder why I'm swinging emotionally. I'm wanting to find something I can do career wise. I want to leave my current job (recognising that it is still a great job), but want to do something more to my liking. Something in the natural therpy area would be great. Then I could perhaps teach yoga part time (not until I'm further along my yogi path) and then do something else part time. I dunno. All I know is that I love yoga, massage, natural therapies, learning about anatomy and movement, and helping other people. I'll put something out to the universe to give me a nice nudge. After every practice in the morning, everything feels great. That's a plus. I'm tired of feeling lost and figure it's time to do something about it. Easier said than done.

Why do I sometimes feel much more emotional since doing Ashtanga? Is this normal?

I'm going to hop back on my mat again and do some salutations and then meditate. Maybe I'll give myself a medicine card reading too.